He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not

He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not.

Penny LeClair

As a child, did you ever play the game he loves me, he loves me not with a daisy flower? Removing a petal off at a time saying he loves me, he loves me not, until there was only one petal left and that last petal was the determining factor on whether he loved you or not?  That game was all based on the luck of the draw or should I say the luck of the petal. Of course that game was played by children to see if a certain boy or girl loved them or not. The things we do to for love.

I want to share something from my heart that I feel is really important to the success of your health, your emotional wellbeing, your relationships, even your financial success, and the wholeness of your life.  I feel like people are playing that game, he loves me; he loves me not with their lives. I see people walking around dazed and confused, I see them sick in their emotions, sick in their bodies, sick in their relationships and sick in their finances, because they pulled off the last petal and decided He didn’t love them.  The He I am talking about is God. They are basing the love of God for them on the luck of the petal.

If we do not know or believe that God loves us more than anything else in this world, we will fall into a pit, daily fighting to get out, only to keep falling backwards.  I was in that pit for many years, even though on the outside it looked ok, and seemed like things were going ok, on the inside and behind closed doors my life was a living hell.  I lacked confidence, I pursued outside sources to make me feel loved, I didn’t like myself, I got involved in new age practices, I was looking for love and acceptance in all the wrong places.  

I grew up in the Catholic Church which taught me to perform to be accepted and loved, there was no such thing as unconditional love. You had to do good to get good, say the rosary and the Lord’s prayer so many times to be forgiven. Very legalistic. I couldn’t do good enough, even though I so desired to do good, I kept failing so I gave up and just did whatever I wanted, I was going to fail anyway, and I didn’t see people from my church making choices to do good either, so if you can’t beat them then why not join them. I gave up.

I finally got sick of myself and everything around me, and surrendered it all, asking Jesus in my life to help me in my desperation. I know that if He hadn’t helped me I would have been in a looney bin, no kidding aside.  I was in a verbally abusive marriage that I swear the devil was residing right in my husband’s mouth to beat me up and make me feel worse than I already did, every chance that He got.  I was slowly dying inside and it was showing up in my body, my finances, my relationships and my emotions were out of control.   Ah but for the grace of God… Jesus.

I remember sitting at the computer one day feeling helpless and hopeless, hating my life, myself and the choices I had made and what I was allowing to happen to me. I distinctively heard the Lord say, I want you to Google what I say about you and how much I love you. So, I did and I printed off two pages of scripture that changed my life.

I would anoint myself with Joy Essential Oil and I would confess out loud and meditate daily …. God loves me with an everlasting love, He has promised to give me a future and a hope, because God loves me, I am more than a conqueror, God’s love for me is patient and kind, His love will never fail me, greater is He who lives in me than he who lives in the world, I am rooted and grounded in the love of God and I am filled with the fullness of God and because God loves me, good things happen to me.

I was renewing my mind and filling my heart with the Love of God for me. I started to build my confidence not in me but His love for me; I began to stand up to the verbal abuse and made healthy choices to remove myself and children from the abuse in my home.  The knowledge of God’s love for me brought revelation, which brought transformation.

God’s love for me delivered me from fear, delivered me from doubt and unbelief; I began to trust God more than the situations in my life. God’s love transformed my whole life from homeless to a home, from limited income to a promotion that tripled my income, from a business that was not increasing to prospering again, from self defeat to confidence that I can do all things through Him because He loves me. And when  things seem to be falling apart it is because I doubt His love for me, it is through His love for us that we will succeed in all things. I used to laugh at people who said, Jesus loves you, now I know it is the most important revelation of God that we can ever have.  We can do all the “church” things, and go to church every week, but those works are not what is going to transform a person, it’s only through the love and grace of God can that happen.

 

Today, I want to challenge you, I want you to really look at your life and ask yourself, do I know that I know that I know that God loves me? Or do you walk around with half results in your life from half knowing that God loves you? The Love of God heals your emotions, your body, your relationships, your mind, even your finances.  The love of God casts out all fear, the Love of God brings Joy and with Joy strength comes, and with strength comes confidence and with confidence comes success.  You know you can’t fail when you know that God loves you.

 

While you are planting the seed of love in your heart through meditating on the scripture of God’s love for you, anoint yourself with Joy.  Joy Essential Oil is a beautiful blend of oils that brings love or joy to the heart.